Friday, April 20, 2012

Fill from Hell

Hi Yall,
I got a fill on Tuesday. This was my first Tuesday appt. Everything started out like normal. Question and answers. Then it was time for the fill. This would be my 4th fill. I lay on the table and lift my shirt. She feels around for the port. Then she sticks me with the numbing stuff (novacaine) or something like that. I feel a pich and a burn. The burning feeling was longer than I remember. I made a little noise like "oh" or something like that. Then she tells me that the pinch and burn is normal. I was like "yep I know but that one was a little different then the others". So then she pulls out the needle. She sticks me and starts twisting it around. She is hurting me and I tell her it hurts. She keeps saying stuff to me like there is a lot of scar tissue. Then she asks me if I want to continue cause she pulls the needle out. I'm thinking to myself "yes but you better hurry you have already hurt me. She goes and gets a longer needle saying maybe she is not reaching the port. WTH I can touch my stomach and feel the darn port. So she sticks me with the longer needle. It hurts. I am crying at this point. I know this is not normal. I tell her to stop and just forget it. Then she says she needs to use the sonogram to make sure my port has not flipped and I would probably have to see the surgeon. She tells me to put pressure on the port area( she gave me gauze because of the little bit of bleeding). She keeps telling me to put pressure on it so I don't bruise. Hell I don't care about bruising. I care about getting my fill done properly. So, I am taken to the room with the sonogram and the Asian lady comes in who I have seen plenty of times. She tells me to stand in front of the xray machine. She gets down on her knees and sticks me with the needle (no pain). She has me drink the barium stuff and she gives me my fill. Easy breezy. So then the new lady starts telling me that she has done over 10k fills. I'm like "ok". So she is going on and on about who hired her. I think she was worried that I would complain to someone. My next appt is on a Monday.

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Whatever happened to.............

Hi y'all, I'm back. I am down to 214. I have been losing slowly. I have not felt like blogging lately. I have started to put everything before myself. And I mean everything. I ate a little of everything today. Really small portions. The dish I brought to my sister in laws house was a veggie and fruit tray. I am rambling. One of my friends made a comment about how the lap band really does not work and banders usually end up getting the sleeve. I told her about all of the blogs I read. She then said " well, maybe it will work for you". It has been working for me. I can almost fit a size 18. some people! Bye y'all.

Monday, February 20, 2012

Zumba 2 days in a row!

Hi y'all, Yes I did Zumba 2 days in a row. I am tired. Food- cottage cheese and pineapples, spinach cheese w/ crackers and salami, turkey, tacos Weight- whatever? I am so happy when people post their NSV's. I just know that one day it'll happen to me. Way to go everyone. Bye y'all

Sunday, February 19, 2012


Hi Y'all
What the heck happened? I typed up this wonderful post updating my life for the past week and this stupid computer just shuts down. I lost the freaking post. I guess I will just give quick updates.
  1. I weigh 219.6 (I am finally in the teens)
  2. I did not exercise last week
  3. I ate better
  4. I had a fill last Monday (trying to get in the green zone)
  5. I tried on my size 18 jeans (what was I thinking)
  6. My size 22 jeans make my but look flat (sagging material)
  7. I am doing a Zumba class (1.5hrs)  later today with my sister in law. (she's really good)
Bye y'all

WTH? So I go hit publish and I see my post from earlier. The blog saved it as a draft. Oh well I will delete it

Friday, February 10, 2012

I will place the blame........

Hi y'all, There are a bunch of things I can blame for my weight gain this week. Job, Zumba, Kids or my week long Aunt Flow. I will place the blame on myself. Eating crackers before my protein. Not making exercise a priority. I will give myself credit for sticking with Zumba. I even bought myself a shimmy shimmy jingle thingy that goes around your waist. I also bought Zumba for the WII. It does not compare to going to a class. I am happy that I am fitting into my size 20w pants. I even wore a pair of dress pants today that I haven't worn in almost 2 years. Dang it I want to be out of the 220's so bad. So my official weight for today is 223lbs. On a side note I did weight myself in the evening becausei forgot to do it this morning. So you know where my feet will be first thing in the morning! The scale. I want and love to see the numbers go down. 1 more thing. I was carrying my baby the other day and noticed how heavy she was to me. She weighs 22lbs. I can't believe I was carrying that much weight on me in December. I wonder how many people can carry their weight loss in lbs around with them all day? Bye y'all

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Vienna Sausages

Hi y'all, I am so glad to know that I am not alone in my love of Vienna sausages. Those darn little wiener things. Food- I am so testing myself. I have not eaten bread because I don't want to do the PB thing. Weight- I really want to be in a size 18 by my birthday.(end of March). I need a fill. I think the nurse said the first fill is nit really accurate. I will ask for another fill on Monday. Exercise- other than Zumba I haven't did anything. Zumba is a getaway for me. No kids no husband. Just me and all those awesome people that move like pros. Bye y'all

Tuesday, February 7, 2012


Hi Yall,
I have been MIA for a few days. My oldest turned 13 and we celebrated all weekend. Anywho.
Weight-222lbs same as week before.
Exercise- I did another Zumba class last night. The moves were a little easier. I might buy me one of those shaker things everyone wears.
Food- Why do I love vienna sausages? They are high in sodium and full of gunk but I still love them. I never ate them before the band. Weird!

Bye Yall

Thursday, February 2, 2012

I am a Zumba woman!

Hi y'all, Zumba was fun! I stayed in the back of the class. I was amazed by how easily the older women were moving. I found myself judging these women at the beginning of class. They were in the front row. Now I know why. They were moving their hips like there was no tomorrow. Oh I wish my hips moved liked that. My feet were getting all mixed up. I looked like a crazy fool. But guess what? I wasn't the only newbie I wasn't the only 2 left feet person in there. Then the instructor told everyone to grab their weights. WTH? Nobody told me anything about weight. The instructor had extras. Yaaaaay! Not. I stayed my butt in the back and did not use any of those weights. I was already sweating. Overall I liked Zumba and will be going again next week. Bye y'all

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

From no to yes

Hi y'all, Yesterday was a bunch of "nos". No exercise. No 64oz water. Today was all about the yes. Exercise yes. Post yes. 64oz water. Food- I had a fill on Monday and I am able to eat the same way before the fill (weird) Exercise- did 2 miles in 30 min. That was hard but I did it. I keep thinking about some saying I saw on Lap Band Gal's facebook page. Something to the effect of "what are you going to do today to change your tomorrow". I looked up Zumba classes in my area. There are so many to choose from. I am excited about going to my first class. Bye y'all

Monday, January 30, 2012

Pic of My Band

Hi Ya'll,
I went to the Dr and am down 3.8 pounds since 2 weeks ago. I asked them to print out ta pic of my band (see below) pic is sideways. Anywho I got my first fill today. It didn't hurt like I thought it would. It felt weird getting it put in. I am on liquids for 2 days.

Bye Ya'll

Sunday, January 29, 2012

My Cooking Skills

Hi Y'all, I go to the Dr.tomorrow. I am going to see if they give me a fill. If not I am just going to tell them I need one. It seems like lately I can eat more before I am satisfied. Food- I made homemade healthy pizza tonight. I was able to eat a whole slice. By the kids will be losing weight also because of my cooking. Oh well! Why don't my kids enjoy retried brand with a little taco seasoning and cheese? Why not have a bowl of cottage cheese with fruit? What's wrong with eating peanut butter by itself? They think I have gone crazy! My husband likes it. My poor children. Oh well! I will not be frying up some chicken. Weight-I didn't way myself at all this weekend. But I will hop on the mean old scale tomorrow morning. Bye y'all.

Friday, January 27, 2012


Hi Y'all,
That is my current weight. 222.2. I took a pic of it but erased it because my feet look chunky in the pic. I hope my feet start shrinking. Don't you hate it when you get on the scale and it has a great number and you get on again and the number is higher? That happened to me. That darn evil scale said 221.8 when I first got on. I was like WOW! So I got on it again and it said 222.2. I should've quit while I was ahead. And don't you know I got on that thing 3 more times. Moving the scale to a different location each time. It still said 222.2. I took a shower and hopped back on the scale. 222.2. So I have accepted the fact that today I weigh 222.2. I am so happy I might even get up tomorrow and work out.

To all of the people that leave such encouraging comments.Thank You! Thank You! Thank You! 

Bye Y'all

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Making Time for Me

Hi y'all, Every morning I get on the treadmill for 30min. I am almost able to walk/jog 1.75 miles. When I reach that 2 mile mark in 30 mini will increase my time to like 45mins. I know exercise is important. That is why no matter what I am doing, when that clock says 6am I am on the treadmill. I am making time for ME. My oldest kids leave me alone and the baby is usually still asleep. If she's awake then she sits quietly in the chair while I work out. It feels so good to make time for myself doing something that I want to do. Measurements- they were what I expected. I lost some inches. Food- I need to start writing down what I eat. I just count in my head the protein. I'll start tomorrow. Bye yall

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Hey Hey Hey Size 20 Here I Come

Hi y'all, Okay, so I know tomorrow is the day I do my measurements but I did a little on my own today. About 3 months I bought these really cute jeans from Target. Wait, I bought those jeans in August. Any who, they never fit me. I could barely get them over my thighs hips and butt. There was a 4 inch gap between the button and buttonhole. I was so mad. Those were perfect jeans for me. 20W short. Dark denim. No stretch. So I tried them on today and I was able to button those bad boys....yay me.....let me say that again. Yay Me!!!!!!!! Ok my stomach was pushed out over the top of them. It was sticking out further than my boobs. Not real cute but I didn't care cause I was able to button them. I paraded around the house in them. I asked my husband and kids how they looked. They liked them. I never thought I would be excited about a freaking size 20. So I took those off and grabbed the size 18 Levis (I have 16 also). I tried them on and they stopped mid thigh. Back on the hanger they go. I put the size 20's back on for a little more celebration. Weight- I hate that darn scale but I'm sure I will love my measurements tomorrow. Bye y'all.

I forgot to post last night.

Hi y'all, It is 3:45am and I am awake. It's hard to sleep good when you have things on your mind. Like forgetting to post. Crazy I know. I am excited about taking my 2 week measurements on Thursday. The scale has been giving me crazy numbers. How could my socks weigh .6lbs? Oh my I need to stay off this darn scale. FOOD- My husband did not buy my tuna yesterday. He bought some shrimp. Yummy! It was so weird that I was able to eat like 15 and not feel satisfied. So I had some cottage cheese after that. Then 10 min later my stomach was hurting. Not sure if I ate to much or the food was a bad combination. My Blog- I have not told my family yet about my blog. They (my sisters) were not supportive at first about me getting the band. It is sooooooooo easy for people to say "just do this" "eat this" "don't eat that". That was getting on my last nerve. I was so tired of being the big sister. I have to give them credit for accepting the fact that I now have the band. They have been calling and checking up on me. Dang my stomach still feels funny from last night. Bye y'all.

Monday, January 23, 2012

I love blogging!

Hi Yall,
I am so glad I started blogging. It feels like the only time I have to myself is the early morning before everyone wakes up or late at night when they are asleep. I love those times.
Food- I am at the point I guess everyone else has been when I feel like I don't have a band inside me. It really is amazing to me that I used to eat 2 plates of food sometimes. I see my kids eating and eating and know that my bad habits have rubbed off on them. I am starting to buy healthier food choices for them to snack on.
Weight- Yes I am a "scale whore". I jump on that thing every morning. Before the band I would say to myself "If I get on this scale and the numbers have gone up, I will NOT have a bad day" Guess what? I was only fooling myself. I would have a bad day because the numbers had jumped up. Now when that happens, I just make sure I drink my water and get my protein in. Even though the scale goes up and down all week, I still see a loss every Friday. So, Fridays I'll be posting my weigh in.
My feeling right now- I can't wait to drink something. I feel like my dinner is just sitting there. It took me like 40 min to eat. I hate that because the food gets cold.

I just want to say "Thank You" again to everyone that is following me and have made comments. ( I keep hitting the delete key) I plan on buying some tuna packets tomorrow when at the grocery store. I don't care for tuna but a change is good.

Bye Yall

I'm trying to post a pic of me at my heaviest. 245lbs. When I look at the pic I don't even feel like that is me. Me and my sisters. I don't have to tell you which one I am.

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Tired of the mushys

Hi World, Yes, I am tired of the mushys. Food- I ate 1/2 cup cottage cheese. Well more like 1/4 since my daughter kept asking for some. I cooked some fresh spinach and a piece of ham (chewed very very well). Weight- why do I weigh myself everyday? It was up to 225. I think I will only do once a week like so many other banded bloggers out there. I told my husband about my blog. He wasn't that interested. He's missing out on some good reading. Thank you Lap Band Gal for the shout out. Hi to all of my new followers. I will definitely be reading all of your blogs and following you too. Okay I have to go eat something. Maybe more cottage cheese and some fruit. Bye y'all.

Saturday, January 21, 2012

#1 Post

Hi World,
I am now banded and would like to share my experience with all of you. I will try not to think so hard when posting. I hit the delete key a bunch when I overthink things. It took me 2 years to get the lapband. I just typed and deleted. and again. ok in 2010 I decided to get the band. I went to Dr to get on birth control so I would not get pregnant. Guess what the Dr said? I was pregnant. After years and years of trying. So I had to wait. So I nursed my daughter for 1 year and then got the band. yay me. I was banded on 12/29/11. The 2 week liquid diet was hell. I did not (deleted some stuff) cheat. I really didn't. Day 1-2 were ok. Day 3-10 were hell. Days 11-14 were easy. I was in and out of the hospital in like 8 hrs. It has been 3 weeks and my incisions (5) are all healed. 3 you can barely see anymore. (ok I just read this post and it is boring to me) Oh well it is mine so I guess I can be boring if I want.
Food- I am starting my 2nd week of mushy foods. I tried some potted meat and I liked it. It was salty though. I will not be eating that. I tried spam. Really salty. My kids and husband were grossed out. Really! I am now eating fish, sausage,( deleted some more) and ground beef. For breakfast I have eggs, grits, and sausage. I also eat mashed potatoes, yogurt, and cottage cheese. I had some tortilla soup from Chick Fil A today. Yummmy.
Weight- I started at 245lbs I can't believe I admitted that. I am now at 223. My clothes are now fitting me. You know how hard it is to buy larger and larger sizes. I stopped and stuffed. stuffed myself into a size 22. Now those 22's are feeling nice.
Measurements-last week I did my 2 week measurements and I lost some inches everywhere. Even my neck. I will post those in another post. Maybe.

Wow! I am so emational right now and so glad I got this over with. (first post that is)